flightless bird :)

love that song. it calms me down. i seem to be needing just that right now. its very interesting how things pan out. every single event in your life happens for some reason, one you might not understand at the moment. People change, promises are broken but there will always be a better person on the way. Im sorry that you can no longer be the kind of friend i need. Im sorry you cant trust me for anything. Im sorry you think so highly of yourself when really i was the better person. Im sorry you are just too stuck up. but im not sorry that you are no longer in my life. i hope you are happy, because after i recover from the hurt i will be. There are better people than you. Thanksgiving is interesting. it helps me reflect and think about the good that has been given to me. I am thankful for my family, i am thankful especially for the people that stay up till midnight trying to help me get my head straight ; the people who wait till their parents are asleep just to talk to me. I am thankful i no longer have a burden in my life, i dont have any weight on my shoulders, i am thankful that things like these help me grow up, I AM THANKFUL that you helped me see clearly, helped me put my life and everything that happens into a brand new perspective. Through all your hoping i would hurt, your cruel words, your intentions to no longer be my friend but my enemy, you actually made me stronger. i will no longer be a friend to you. but i am thankful for you. thank you for opening my eyes.

have a nice stuck up life without me.

Soooo......

Twilight was amazing. it wasnt better than the books but that was to be expected. They seemed to cram everything together but i understand there was alot of material to cover. every guy in there is so cute. me and sami were freaking out. well mostly me but yea. i was DAZZLED. shannon and kiersten and emily where silent during the whole thing. except for the occasional laugh at me freaking out. lol. aprul was there which was cool lol. and so was vicky and that creepy girl that wants to jump me. it was fun fun fun! whoo. i want to watch it again though because i couldnt really concentrate on the plot with boys that look like that on the screen. :))) the baseball scene was smexxi haha. jasper and the bat tricks were amazing. anyways i was inspired coming back from the movie so i wrote a song about edwards feelings. it doesnt live up to the book or the movie but hey




p.s. i think alice cullen is the most amazing vampire ever :)))

just to remind you

everything i say on here is what i feel AT THE MOMENT i will never mention it again if the situation turns out okay. this is where i vent when im upset so dont trip over anything i say on here. whenever i write here im being completely honest with myself to get out my frustration or anger. PEOPLE VENT ALL THE TIME so is it against the rules for me to??????!?!?!?! im pretty sure you do that to so DONT TRIP. its just how i feel. im not a ROBOT who can keep my feelings in! i need to write and talk about it. its how everyone learns and gets things out of their system

DONT TRIP OVER THIS CRAP ON HERE

<3 michelle

hmm....

just in a thinking/writing to myself mood lately. If you do something wrong once and feel sorry about it, havent you learned your lesson to never do it again, seeing what the effects to your actions has caused? well thats what i used to think but some people seem to be trying to prove my thoughts wrong.

I feel like i cant trust anyone anymore. its weird to say i know but thats how i feel. People backstab and lie and hurt you all the time and thast why all you can trust it yourself because you ARE the ONLY person that you can trust. there may be some exeptions im not sure yet. lets see what the future holds. I think i should keep to myself a little more. Think about what i say, before i say it. so that way at least it lessens my chance of getting hurt by people.

anyways you probably didnt get that.
sorry bout that :) bye.

clouds can move and skies will be wide open....

yo. yo yo! yea i said it twice! haha. wuzzup? so ive just realized how well things are cleaned up these days. The drama is fading but of course it WILL take a while to re gain my trust. But sure we talk, we're just not as close. So im really excited for these next few weeks, it seems after the bad crap im actually getting some good in return. My fav. show's new episode is coming up BOOYAH FATTAY, i get to see my family this thanksgiving, twilights coming out, and a certain missed family is coming to visit! im so stoked. Speaking of thanksgiving, im really thankful for my family. When everyone else fails they are always there to talk to, and to encourage me. im glad i have someone who understands me. you know who you are....I LOVE YOU GUYS

anyways,

im out of here yall, peace! HAHAHA

drama, drama , drama

yea im not really a fan of that crap, in fact im not a fan at all. Then why did it just come knocking at my door? my goodness what did i do wrong? ugh. TRUST, its hard to gain from me and even harder to earn back, then why would someone break it. I put all frikken doubts aside because i thought i wasnt giving her what she deserved but actually i was wrong. She doesnt deserve that kind of gratitude. my "sister". why would you do that do a person you were so close to? why would you lie to someone you care so much about? i dont mind that she likes him, i mean look at him! but i do mind the very fact that she has kept this from me for so long! youve told me about EVERY guy youve dated but not this one! a "didnt want to hurt you" ohmygoodness. you just hurt me by lying. if you told me in the first place i would be FINE! but no....you wanted to be little ms. shady!

im done :)

p.s. you could have any guy, but you picked him. :p