tellmewhy.

lately ive been insanely tired.i havent been trying much to do anything either.im not sure why. this week has been sucky AND insanely slow. ugh. i feel hecka unwanted and useless.

Ugh.

this is so frustrating. when i really need a way to communicate emotions i turn to the one thing ive known best since i was born basically: music. When i have a situation i want to let out everything about its always been the best way to make me feel better. I write some lyrics, play some chords, sing some notes BANGGG perfect cure. But lately ive been feeling so slow about it. I pick up my guitar, go to the piano, and theres no result at all. Things are changing and i really need to write some songs right now. UGH. but it isnt working for me. is this the end of my music? its really infuriating to hold in such emotions and feelings, and thoughts. WANTING so badly to let them out in my own personal way but right now i dont have the notes, the ears, the talent to do so.

I really dont like you.

gah. it seems like every single time i like a boy everything for me goes out of wack! maybe i just shouldnt like people anymore. Thats a really hard thought to deal with. i am so confused right now its not even funny. thats what happens when you like a guy with multiple personalities >:( man. maybe im just meant to be alone. haha. llisten to me im just 13 and im already considering that my love life is over AND i havent even dated yet lol. maybe im just going insane. yeah thats it. ugh i need some help.

love, michelle