we are changing;

man i feel so dang emo today. (trust me i am no where near that stage at all). How many people have i lost? how many people are drifting away from me right now? well the numbers arent very cheerful. I dont know what i do, but i do them and people hate me. Almost everyone freaking hates me or doesnt like me anymore. Ive lost people that i wanted to be in my life forever and im still losing the ones that helped me get through the most painful situations ive come across in my entire life. Im no stranger to pain though. i know most of it is all my fault, i was dumb in my past i did dumb things and i continue to do dumb things. Hopefully im becoming a better person and in the end, ill have at least ONE person. someone. anyone.